Just a Monday

Wrote to GA today and told him what I've been meaning to tell him. Now we'll see what he has to say. Trying to decide whether or not to talk to Aphid about it, she'd have insight. Had a long chat with Fate this morning. He was in an obnoxious mood :o) Haven't had that fun of a talk with him for years now. Oh, and had a nice chat as well with a new guy, D, stationed in Iraq at the moment. He's not usually on when I am, so I passed him my e-mail.
Baby has forward motion, he can now army crawl to get where he's going. It's VERY cute!
Mom joined SI6 today, and I'm so happy to have her there, hope we can help motivate her to lsoe some weight, since I've been worried about her for some time.
Work was really slow tonight, but the blond boys were in and were being so sweet! Kelton is in Tiger Cubs, and was so proud of himself. Brooke and me were playing with them since we didn't have much else to do.
Not feeling well tonight, been having headaches and feeling a bit dizzy. Going to skip the workout and head to bed I think, I'll shower first thing in the morning. I fiugre it's just stress, been worrying about money and the lawyer thing. I should break down and just call the guy dad found me, but I'm so afraid he won't be helpful, getting tired of people not caring just because they're higher on the legal food chain than me.

We are not amused...

Hooray sent me a text message which is not something included in his cell plan, so it costs him an arm and a leg, so I assumed something was wrong. I didn't get the message until this afternoon because texts don't beep apparently. I spent 3 hours trying to clal him and both his lines were constantly busy. Come to find out it was nothing important, but his was on the phone with his little Chi girl all afternoon. Just visiting, it's Sunday. So I told him I didn't want to hear about it, he was moving on a bit too fast for my taste, and he asks me what I'm talking about. So I pointed out the 19yo stripper he asked out a week after I moved out. And he said "Well, we haven't had the best relationship for the last year." And I said it's been fine when you pretend it is. And he asks what I mean and I bring up him telling me he wants to stay married in March and saying it was for me. And he says in July I decided I should leave, and I pointed out that that was when he told me he only asked to stay married because of Even, that he'd lied to me in March. Can you believe he hung up on me? Well, okay, yeah, I can see that. But bastard, he thinks it's okay to ask for a divorce when I'm 6 months pregnant and having contractions on a regular basis, essentially on bed rest, but if I'm there to take care of the newborn I better stay. He's been entertaining thoughs of Beaute for over a year and now that she's not talking to him hardly he's found a new little chick to lean on and talk with incessantly. At least I'm not there to witness it like I had to with her. But it's so damn unfair that he has someone he can talk to for support for hours on end and I have an 8 month old to complain at, and that all has to be happy and cheerfully spoken. Can't bitch around the older boys, and don't feel close enough to anyone else to vent at. Christine sometimes. Penny would be ideal, but I don't like doing that stuff on the phone. I juust feel so very alone sometimes, and that doesn't seem right. I'm the one working my arse off in 2 jobs, raising 3 kids and he's the one having a grand old time, then calls me when he needs help. And I'm such a stupid sap I always go. I was SO uncomfortable doing his office work this past week, gotta do something about that. I need to call that lawyer my dad found me and just bite the bullet. I'll find some way to pay him back eventually, though I know he'd never ask. Nuff of this, Aerrik wants the comp :o(

Home coming

That's right, the home coming football game was tonight. Basically that means we got slammed for dinner at 6, and everyone disappeared by 7, never to be seen again. Unless, of course, you drove past the high school. Of course, you could hear them from a half mile off... The Buena Vista Demons (5-1) versus the Leadville Panthers (0-6). Supposedly the Panthers scored their first touchdown of the season at their last game. I'm not sure if that's a rumour or not... AFter picking up the boys, we cruised past the school to see what the score was. It was 9:00, 4 minutes left in the 4th, and I kid you not, the score was 70-0. Guess who had the 70? So we trashed them. They may as well have left sometime into the second half, but whatever. You gotta give them credit for staying ;o)

Other big news for the day is I hacked my hair off. Okay, I didn't hack it off, Sean down at Floyd's hacked it off. When you want to make a drastic change, go to a flaming homosexual. Best rule. My hair was half way down my back and is now just an inch or two below my shoulders. It's got a Jennifer Aniston layer thing going on which I can't decide if I really love or really hate. But whatever, it grows back ;o) I think it's cute, even if I did get some odd looks from people that know me, and the kids like it. It's really weird brushing it now though, I was having to swing it around front to brush the ends, now it's so short and easy! I can't wait to wash it tonight ;o) Think of the savings in shampoo alone!

Pajama Day

I just finished the most fabulous work out! I kicked up WATP and was sweating by the 1 mile mark. I nromally don't start until she gets to the weights! Now, some could acocunt this to being more out of shape, but I pushed the intensity, and know that's what it was. especially since when the music slowed down nearing 2 miles, I DIDN'T WANT TO STOP! Can you believe that? Me? Wanting to keep exercising??? Don't call the men in white coats just yet, I'm quite ready for bed now!

This week is spirit week here in BV, homecoming is this weekend. This means a fun filled theme week for the elementary kids. Today was pajama day, and boy did the kids get a kick out of that! I ahd to make sure Aerrik's "I do my own stunts" pjs were clean, and I had the hardest time with Chris! As he lazed around in his jammies at 11:00, I kept having an overwhelming desire to tell him to get dressed! haha ANd I did a couple times, in a joking way. They didn't think I should've gotten Even dressed, but his footsie jammies are just to warm for the weather right now.

This evening pizza was requested so against my better judgement I shelled out the $13 for Pizza Works. Also, Chirs earned his BookIt, so of course he had to have his personal pan from Pizza Hut! He also got a medal and a backpack tag for completing his monthly goal. Not too hard to have 10 books read to you, but he was so excited, and I really played it up. He's ready to start next month!

Aerrik talked me into coming to the park with them after dinner. While Even and I sat at a table and watched him and Chris play, a young lady came up with 3 kids in tow plus a baby. She wasn't the sharpest knife in the drawer, but she babysits the little ones every day while their mom works. I caught on quick that she didn't have a high opinion of the parents, and wished she would've kept quiet about it in front of the kids. Little baby Madison was the most adorable thing! She had a tiny little nose and mouth and the biggest blue eyes! She was so small, only in 3-6 month clothes at 10 months old, so Even just looke dlike a monster next to her! haha I guess she was really early and only 4 lbs at birth, and gets sick very easily. Thank god for small blessings, Even only has a little cold right now and never did catch the flu from us.

Well, I'm off to bed. I'm flagrantly avoiding Bill, who I see is online. So if you happen here, Bill, sorry! We always get to chatting and I stay up way too late! I've been so tired lately, I need to get some sleep! Maybe I'll catch you on a weekend.

G'nite world!

LAM

Today I met a woman at Punky's (as I often do) and she made me think of Becky. She carried a small oxygen tank in a black pack on her shoulder, just like Becky used to do when she was out. I don't know her name, but her husband's name was Richard. She smiled very nicely and was so friendly. I noticed she wore one of those rubber bracelets that's so popular, and when I took her food out I asked her what it said. It was the web address for the LAM site. http://lam.uc.edu/>http://lam.uc.edu/ This woman has Lymphangioleiomyomatosis, which is a big word for infinite doom. She explained that it was a lung disorder that is terminal. But everything is, we joked. It strikes about 100 women a year, usually about my age. But 1 in 5 are post menopausal, which she was. Her husband sat quietly while we talked, he had that same look inhis eye that Dad had when Becky explained her illness. I told her about Becky, and showed her my own bracelet, "Phenomal Hope". I told her how Becky had lived 4 years, rather than 6 months, and that she never complained, and how strong she was. I told her to keep smiling, and anything is possible. I wanted to say so much more. I promised to go to the website, and I did. When she left, she caught my eye, waved, and smiled. I smiled back, and almost cried. I had smiled at a dead woman, but she wasn't yet. And isn't ife so unfair? And aren't we lucky to meet such special people? I hope I touched her day, she touched mine.