Done did it

Skipped my cardio last night but did a two mile WATP tonight so it's alright. Supposed to go to a P90X meet-up on Saturday but not sure if I'll chicken out... I really should go meet some new people and push myself.

Super busy at work today but I still got a math essay done and it's already back graded - pass! I have less to do than I thought, four more essays and two lessons. I thought it was twice as much, so that's nice!


After I wrote last time I went to bed and Brian came in while I was trying to fall asleep. Had a long talk but not sure what good it'll do. Talked about bipolar a little but how do you explain it to someone that doesn't know? He seems to think he can tell a bad day from a good day but it's not as simple as that, it's an inability to control if I'm happy or angry or whatever. I can put on a mask and act a bit, it's hard work but I do it, especially for the kids. But I don't feel like I should have to wear that for my husband. But I also don't think he can handle me without it.

He gets snipped tomorrow. So I guess if we work things out, no more kids for me. Not sure how I feel about that.

Saw pics of my big brother today on his Facebook, taken on deployment and in Singapore. Where'd his hair go?? So nice to see him smiling in a photo, though that doesn't really look like him...