He ain't no cowboy ;o)

Tex,

I've been meaning to sit down and write something for several days now, it's just been a busy week. Haven't been on the computer much except for work, which is where I'm writing this.

Thanks again for having me up this past weekend. I know I'm welcome any time, but still. I really needed that weekend. I wish it had been longer, but that's life. My stress level has been climbing so much lately, and getting out of time gave me a chance to release and unwind.

And as for you...

Being in your arms can only be described as coming home. It is a feeling of safety and security that I become lost in, and I never want to leave. When your arms are wrapped around me and my head is on your shoulder, the world disappears. I am sure I must have known you before.

But nothing more than that right now. I think it's been too long, and I shouldn't have done something I did... I'm afraid of being hurt, afraid you'll disappear again. I was battling feelings of safety and fear, and that seems strange to me. I do love you, always have, I imagine. But I don't know what else will be there, if there would be anything. If we hadn't had that pause, if summer hadn't diappeared... And I know you probably don't care one way or the other.

You are still what I need every now and again, and I hope to be in your arms in the near future. Who knows where it will go? I forgot how annoying you are ;o) But then, I don't mind that so much either. I hope to see you again soon, and I know I can always call when I need rescued.

Much love
~

On the Wings of Angels

Emily Keyes

Age 16

RIP September 27, 2006

Beloved daughter and sister

Loving child

Stranger

Destroyed.

This odd connection...

Can you hear me when I'm thinking about you? Do you know? I swear soemtimes I can feel you touching me. You envelop me, surround me... My chest aches and my whole body trembles. I grow short of breathe for a moment and all I can think of or see or hear is you. Sometimes it last for an instant, sometimes longer. Today it was more than a full minute, I'm sure. And when this happens, and it ends, I smile and feel complete. And the world is better for a while.